Anticipation

I don't know about you, but sometimes I have this feeling inside of anticipation. It's a feeling of the possibility that something significant is about to happen. God says in the Bible, "Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland." Is. 43: 18-19

We used to sing a praise song that said, "God will make a way where there seems to be no way. He works in ways we cannot see, He will make a way for me. He will be my guide, hold me closely to His side. With love and strength for each new day, He will make a way, He will make a way. By a roadside in the wilderness He'll lead me. And rivers in the desert will I see. Heaven and earth will fade, but His word will still remain. He will do something new today."

My heart is encouraged because He has heard my prayers and listened to my cries. He has held me closely to His side and has given me love and strength for each day; otherwise, I could not have withstood the hurt and rejection, lonliness and fear that I have experienced over the last few months. But please, don't think I have this super faith or that I am strong. I am really quite weak. I have cried out to God in anguish and yes, even anger and bitterness. But the Lord is strong, and patient. He understands my human weaknesses; the pain and the sorrow in my heart. I feel safe to go to Him and pour it all out. I don't have to be eloquent or even make alot of sense! Thankfully, the Spirit speaks when we don't have the words to express what is in our hearts.

I feel so grateful that He loves us enough to put up with us. I understand better now how much our rejection of Him must wound His heart. I understand more about unconditional love as He has taught me to show this to my husband. Something good has come from this. Since "all things work together for good for them that love Him," I am sure more good is to come.

I feel a lull in the storm. It's like the clouds are starting to part. I am not saying the storm is over. On the contrary, I won't be surprised if there are still many dark storm clouds yet to pass, but I believe the worst of the storm is over. Or at the very least, something is changing. Now, I will be still in my spirit and know that He is God, and He is in control. What a relief! I am glad the past is in the past, and I am excited to see this "new thing" that is coming.
 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jer. 29: 11

God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength
For each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way
By a roadway in the wilderness
He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
He will do something new today
From: http://www.musicbabylon.com/From: http://www.musicbabylon.com/

God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength
For each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way
By a roadway in the wilderness
He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
He will do something new today
From: http://www.musicbabylon.com/From: http://www.musicbabylon.com/